Thursday, October 29, 2009

Book Review: On Call by Emily R. Transue, M.D.

Dr. Transue's book was published in 2004. At the time, there were not as many medical memoirs on the market. There are still relatively few medical memoirs published, but I can't help but compare Transue's book to Sandeep Jauhar's book, Intern: A Doctor's Initiation, published in 2008. But first, a bit more about Transue's book.

Audience. Transue clearly is writing for non-physicians. She even includes a glossary in the back of the book with words like central line, amyloidosis, and even the word attending. Her stories often involve clear explanations on the ailments her patients have so as to not lose the reader in technical jargon.

Organization. The book is largely chronological, although its short-story format may not necessarily require chronological sequencing. Each story is 5-8 pages long-- long enough for character development and details and short enough to keep your interest piqued. That being said, I couldn't help but feel a disconnect with Transue because the stories didn't build upon each other.

Comparison with Intern: A Doctor's Initiation
Both Transue and Jauhar were internal medicine residents. Both begin their stories with their first day of intern year, stories from their first year, and then move on to second year, looking back on the first year once they are more senior in residency. Both struggle with relationships, although in different ways. Jauhar gets married to his girlfriend that he met before residency started; Transue struggles with being single and wanting to be in a relationship.

While I enjoyed Transue's book and simple writing style, I couldn't help but feel like I couldn't get to know her because of the format of the book. One of the more memorable stories involves Transue connecting with a patient with terminal cancer. The patient used to travel to Valencia, but likely will not make it back before he dies. After he passes, she writes:

Other patients come, to fill his empty room, to fill my hours. But he stays with me, in the blue sky, in the lush greens and pinks of the spring that has finally come. I remember to look out the windows, to watch the evening light on the cathedral, which I imagine as being magically transported from Valencia. And I hold his Spanish islands in my heart when there are moments I have trouble bearing, promising myself that I will go there someday, that I will walk along the cobbled paths and feel the sunshine and know the joy in my life that he had in his.

It's a touching story, as are many of Transue's stories. She seems to have an incredible amount of compassion for all of her patients. Still, Jauhar's format, which strings stories together and builds upon itself, was more enjoyable for me because I could follow Jauhar's emotional and mental development through residency. Jauhar also touched upon more controversial topics such as informed consent, publishing while being a doctor, and DNR conversations. These conflicts, coupled with Jauhar's stories of his personal life and progression through residency, really helped to keep me interested. It took me a while to read Transue's book simply because I felt like many of the stories were similar. She would connect with a patient, try and help solve their medical condition or struggle with their death or difficult diagnosis. She would learn something that would translate into her personal life, and then we'd be on to the next story with the next life lesson.

I would recommend Transue's book to someone who doesn't have any family member in the medical field and would like a small sampling of what the life of a resident looks like. For the more seasoned medical memoir reader, I recommend books by Atul Gawande.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Finance Tip: How to Pay for Expensive Medical Textbooks

If your program has a stipend for books, the next time you get reimbursed for the books you've bought, save that money for next year's books. Set the money aside in a targeted savings account specifically for medical books.


I know this sounds incredibly obvious, but it wasn't to us, and I'm guessing we're not the only ones. Last year we spent over $500 on J's medical text books. We have a stipend for the books, but it's only paid at the end of the year, which is July for most residency programs. So we struggled to pay for the books and we didn't see the reimbursement until months later.


This year, the same thing happened. J bought some books and we didn't really have the funds to pay for them. If we had saved our reimbursement from last year, we'd be fine. So that's what we'll do next year.


Do you have any tips for saving for medical books? Those suckers are expensive!!

Friday, October 2, 2009

Finding Yourself Helps Your Marriage


Some great advice for any marriage is to find yourself. A marriage blog I follow regularly is doing a series on this topic and I'm excited to check it out. Medical marriages have great potential because you have the time to find yourself because, let's face it, you are by yourself a lot of the time.

So the next time your spouse is on call, spend a night pondering who you are. It will help your marriage.

It occurs to me there are two ways of looking at medical marriages. The pessimistic view is to say things are incredibly hard because our spouses' stressful work permeates every aspect of our life, even when we don't want it to. The optimistic view is to say we've got incredible potential to make a very strong marriage. This is the second time I'm realizing how lucky I am to be in a medical marriage with lots of potential. The first time was my post on the honeymoon phase.

Hooray for new realizations about medical marriages and myself in general! That's exactly what this blog is about. Finding equanimity through finding myself.
So readers, tell me, what do you to to find yourself?

I like to journal. I sure would like to journal in the books pictured above. Since J is on night float the next two months, I am going to make it a point to journal at least a few nights a week.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Links & Articles of Interest

Here are two interesting things I've been reading about on the web:

Revealing the New American Doctor by Sara Michael. I was especially intrigued about the survey responses to work-life balance. 66% of doctors said they don't have as much time for personal life as they'd like. 3 out of 4 physicians get home for dinner with the family a few times a week (!)

Two articles suggest that cutting physician pay isn't the solution to curbing healthcare costs. One article says physicians' salaries comprise 1% of overall healthcare spending. The other article indicates physicians' salaries have been stagnant or declining in the past decade.

In other news, I'm excited to announce that I'll be doing some more book reviews soon! Stay tuned...

Friday, September 25, 2009

Facebook and Being a Professional


[This post was inspired by KevinMD's recent post on the topic]

Is your physician spouse on Facebook? If so, he or she may want to consider making his/her profile private and only visible to known friends.
You may want to consider doing the same. The image that your spouse portrays as a physician is important. Also, you are entitled and allowed to have a personal life. You are also entitled to have some privacy, which is something Facebook can take away if used improperly.

I think anyone would be horrified to find pictures of their primary care physician on Facebook taking kegstands at a party. But there are more subtle details that I’d rather not know about my doctors and their spouses. I probably do not want to find out that my primary care physician is a fan of the arch enemy of my alma mater, or that she is of another political persuasion. I may not want to find out that my doctor supports a cause that I am adamantly opposed to. There are just some things about my doctor I don’t need to know.

Similarly, as a lawyer, I do not want my clients to be able to see me on Facebook. Not because I have anything to hide, but it’s nice to have a clean separation between my personal life and my professional life. (I won’t even touch upon instances where a boss may befriend you on Facebook… that has been explored by others).

Not only do you want to protect your personal life, but you may want to consider the fact that your institution or school’s reputation is also at stake. Facebook allows you to post the name of your employer, and often you can connect with other employees. As a result, there can be an entire network of hospital employees on Facebook, and the image they portray could adversely affect the hospital. Kevin MD's post goes into this issue more (which applies to medical schools as well—so even medical students should be thinking about these things!).

Facebook has benefits and drawbacks. It’s great to connect with that long-lost friend. But it’s difficult because you lose a lot of privacy. Finding a good balance- like keeping your profile private and only allowing friends to view it- may help you and your spouse both personally and professionally.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Follow up on anonymity

Thank you for your comments and thoughts about keeping my identity anonymous. As many of you pointed out, anonymity ensures that I can freely talk about my husband's residency program without worrying that he or his program will get in trouble. So I've decided to stay anonymous, as most of you advised.

Now, let's get back to posting!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Being a Patient at Your Spouse's Hospital During Residency

Our health insurance allows us to get care from my husband's hospital without any co-pay obligation. Therefore, I could have delivered our child at my husband's hospital without paying a cent. I chose to deliver elsewhere because I was uneasy about his co-workers delivering our baby. I had no idea what I would act like while in labor, and because I know how much people gossip, I decided I wanted to steer clear of any potential drama. J supported my decision, and as it turned out, I wasn't horrible during labor. I'm still happy I wasn't at his hospital. If we had another child I doubt I'd go to his hospital, even now when I know what my temperament is like during labor and I know the costs associated with going elsewhere. (Our insurance still paid for the majority of the birth, but we still incurred some additional costs that wouldn't have occurred had I gone to his hospital.) It was just better for both of us to have some privacy during the very personal moments associated with giving birth.

A friend of mine who is married to a co-worker of J's recently had surgery at their hospital. Her husband didn't scrub in to the surgery for obvious reasons. It was a pretty intense surgery and if anything went wrong it would be difficult for him to keep his composure. But one of his co-workers did scrub in and the attending who performed the surgery is the immediate boss of her husband. She was apprehensive about the surgery itself, but she was also nervous because both co-workers would see her completely naked. Of course, both doctors are extremely professional and would never respond inappropriately to the situation, but it was still difficult for her to accept the fact that these co-workers would be performing the surgery.

Being a patient at your spouse's hospital has pros and cons.

Pros:
  • your spouse is very familiar with the doctors at his work and can ensure you get the best of care from people he or she trusts;

  • you will likely get some special attention, if nothing else from your spouse who can stop by often to see you.
Cons:
  • You will have less privacy;

  • If you feel something is amiss, you may be hesitant to speak up for fear of offending someone;

  • If something goes wrong, you and your spouse may become very disgruntled with the hospital or the staff, which makes the working situation for your spouse difficult.

In the end, the type of procedure you are having at the hospital may make a significant difference in your decision to either avoid or attend your spouses' hospital. In my friend's case, I think she was wise to have a surgeon she trusted and knew to perform her surgery. I'm lucky to be able to afford to go elsewhere. But I know if I had to go to my husband's hospital for labor, I would have been treated well and people would hopefully be professional about my labor story.

Ultimately, other than the cost, I think your personality dictates whether you should have a procedure done at your spouse's hospital or not. If your gut feeling is "gosh I don't want to have it at his/her hospital" then you should listen to your gut and go elsewhere if you can afford it. Being a patient at a hospital is a very vulnerable feeling, and you should be as comfortable as possible so you can focus on recovering quickly. That means avoiding stress, and if it stresses you out to be at the hospital of your spouse, then don't go. If you don't have any apprehension about going to your spouse's hospital, or you don't seem to care either way, more power to you. And don't worry about hospital staff's opinion about your choice-- you can bet staff people have considered the same quandary and can see both sides of the story as well.

What about you? Have you been a patient or customer at your spouses' job? How did you feel about it? If cost weren't a factor, where would you choose to go?

[P.S. Incidentally, this quandary occurs at my job too. We have handled legal matters for employees and their spouses, including our receptionist's divorce. I consider divorce to be pretty personal legal matter, and this divorce was supposedly pretty emotionally charged. Even though it was supposedly pretty intense, I have never heard details about the divorce and I think it was handled very professionally.]